I do this with various bands too. You feel great that you now like them so much, but also feel ignorant when you remember how you didn't like them as much as you should have back then.
And NIN is one for me as well. I first started listening to NIN a long time ago, the sound was fresh to me, and it was angry. I dug it. Just like a lot of people who casually listen to NIN. But it was way later that I really got sucked into the music and truly admired how fvcked up and creative Reznor really is. Hard to explain, but the Broken - Spiral era has this really cold, harsh, and helpless feel to it combined with Reznor's venomous angst, its just amazing.
I think I tried too hard and too long seeking more heavier and obscure stuff that could out-do NIN, but in the end theres no reason for a music pissing contest. NIN Is what it is. Really loud, messed up, yet riveting music, that oddly pulls off being more accessible. Bringing the inner crazy out of a large number of people is never a bad thing.
Everyone is super young
They're and they're getting drunk
They left me in the dust again
It seems to have become a trend
I'm sinking down the drain
Drinking away all the pain
I think I'll blow my brains out now
They're stealing everything I've made
Corrupting every girl I've laid
Doing it better and getting paid
I'm very very very afraid there's nowhere left for me to go
I burned out a long time ago I guess I'm just an asshole
(Eins, zwei, drei, vier)
Hey, tomorrow you and your friend yesterday
But you can never catch me because
I'm old, I'm bold, I broke that mold when I was young and dumb and full of in' cum
And if you feel the way that I'm supposed to feel then you are
Youth is wasted on the young
What planet are you from
You think that you're the only one who's ever lived before
I have died a thousand deaths
I've sucked upon a million breasts
My compliments to all the chefs
Whatever gets me through the day is how I throw my life away
These lyrics are becoming gay it's just like 50 shades of grey
You're doing everything I want
Being everything I'm not and reaping all the benefits
Hey, tomorrow you and your friend yesterday
But you can never catch me because
I'm old, I'm bold, I broke that mold when I was young and dumb and full of in' cum
And if you feel the way that I'm supposed to feel then you are
You are [x3]
(I am a relic from the past
Praise to caeser
These days are all i've got
And that ain't much
My life is the ambition
If I was going to kill myself I would tell you
You're only young once, but you can't be immature forever)
Hey, tomorrow you and your friend yesterday
But you can never catch me because
I'm old, I'm bold, I broke that mold when I was young and dumb and full of in' cum
And if you feel the way that I'm supposed to feel then you are