I admit, it does really sound strange to me, that someone would want something, but doesn't care it happens. Apparently, you care enough for it to want it. It sounds very teenage angsty to me to be all "I don't care!" about something, yet you still want it. I don't believe in you when you say you don't care, and especially not after having expressed displeasure about it and THEN state that you want it to be different. It collides with my sense of logic.
"I want chocolate, but I don't care if I get it." ... That sentence doesn't make sense to me. But apparently it does for you guys.